What a week...

Sometimes things just don't go as planned.  I'm okay with that for the most part.  Aleast i usually am.  This week was one of those times where I know everything will pass, but I'm not terribly okay with it.  I just want things to be okay with everyone.  I'd do whatever i could to make that happen.  This week has been life changing though.  I've learned that some friends are ones that I truly need in my life.  It's amazing how much i rely on them and their support.  At times I've been barely able to hold back tears because of how much i do care about these people that can see me and know what I need and try to make me happy.  They all know I'd do the same for them.  Others I've had to learn to let go.  I'm more okay with that part of the week than anything because I feel like there is nothing that I could have done differently.  Life is what it is.  Something else I have learned is that there are some people that just get in my heart and my soul and they will never ever be forgotten.  I only wish there was some way to let them know how their memory will be something I tell my grandkids about.  I can just picture myself 50 years from now thinking back on how much they changed my life.  I know some extremely special people and they really are everything i could ever need as friends.  So maybe next week will be better.  Maybe by next week this week won't have been so bad.  Maybe it will be just another hurdle i had to jump over.  Or maybe i did the unusual thing and limbo'd under it;) 

Who Could Know?

Who could know what tomorrow will bring?  I sure don't.  Not really sure I'd want to.  Sometimes I wonder though.  If I knew what the future would hold I would want to change it more often than not.  That takes away something beautiful though:  fate.  Not sure if it is real.  I'd like to think that my life has a purpose that I just don't know yet.  I'd like to think maybe I'm destined for someone or I'm meant to serve a purpose in this world.  If I knew it was coming would it really be destiny?  Would it be my choice of exactly what i wanted it to be?  That makes me also think that maybe I would then have a perfect life.  But here's my point- without the bad things in my life- mistakes, losses, problems, disputes, conflict- What would even be considered good? 


Who could know what tomorrow will bring?  I sure don't.  Not really sure I'd want to.